This is the start of something great...



 Ahhh, The dreaded scale. When I stepped on mine this morning it made me want to cry. It lied to me (or maybe I'm lying to myself?) it said 183.4. That would mean I am just a few ounces shy of gaining 30 pounds in one year. I would like to shake my head and say "How did this happen?" but I know EXACTLY how this happened. Open mouth, insert food. Followed by stay on couch, do not move.

This blog is in part because my friend Jess encouraged me to post about this. The other part is that I need to hold myself accountable for my actions. I need to write about my success right along with my epic failures and I can assure you there will be many.

My goals are pretty simple. LOSE 50 POUNDS!I want to stay between 1200-1500 calories per day and 20-25 carbs. This should give me a pretty good balance. I don't want to log all my food and bore you with a daily diary of what I'm eating. I want to just check in and update you on the day to day things I encounter on my journey. I want to work out at least one time a day. AND!!! I will only weigh once a WEEK!!! I will not, I repeat I will NOT get on the scale every single morning. This is my weakness and a serious downfall for me! If I can keep myself off the scale I might have a shot for a change...

Now, I've already encountered my first failure. I told myself when I went to bed last night that I should get up at 5:15 this morning and hit the elliptical. Yeah, well that alarm went off and I slept on until about 5:45. The truth is I am not a morning person. I've struggled with insomnia for over 15 years and if I can get sleep at any point I will take it. I can't make myself get up and workout when there is valuable sleep to be had. I am not going to beat myself up over this any more. No, from now on I will make myself do at least 30 minutes in the evenings after work and if I have time I have a nice gym in my office I can use at lunch. Making myself feel bad about not getting up at the crack of dawn and working out will just discourage me so I'm going to stop that.

Maybe I can do this. Maybe I can't but either way... I'm going to write about it. So, read it or don't its OK either way... if you are working through weight loss too feel free to offer any advice and encouragement that you can. I'll appreciate it all.