Why do I lie to myself?

I guess we all do it. It’s a human trait we can’t escape. I promised myself I would not get on the scale every day and that was a total lie. I have gotten up every morning and jumped right on that thing and it’s told me the ugly truth every day. I NEED to stay off of that scale. It really discourages me and makes me lose focus. Today is day 4 and I’ve stayed strong each and every day. I’ve not failed or cheated once. I keep telling myself that if I just push through these first couple of weeks my lifestyle will have changed and I will be able to keep going. Now, I’m questioning if that is just a big lie I am telling myself too. It’s not been easy these last few days but I really didn’t expect it to be. I’m still lacking in the exercise department. I have chronic migraines and they really hinder me from working out hard these days. I’m getting treatment for them but it still is a daily challenge to set the pain aside and workout. But, you know I could go for a walk and probably be fine. I just don’t, I let my brain make excuses that my body just accepts. I need to get out of this way of thinking. It’s going to ruin everything I’m hoping to accomplish.  I have done a great job with my eating though. I think I’m feeling better about that too. The real test will be over the weekend… can I maintain my food schedule when I don’t have the structure of work around me??? Guess we will find out tomorrow!